3 months ago I was both emotionally and physically drained, my health had deteriorated and I was feeling sucked of all energy. For at least 1 month prior I had been ignoring some pretty big warning signs my body had been giving me. I was emotionally a mess, completely stressed out to the point where I was having terrible disrupted sleep every night, and my face had broken out in the most painful pimples. Not only did I suddenly have these painful pimples, my forehead was covered in these weird small bumps, something I had never had before. My digestion was a nightmare, I suddenly had gas, bloating and constipation and after every meal I just didn't feel good.
I knew for quite some time how my body had manifested these physical symptoms however I was living in denial and didn't want to face the reality of the situation. It wasn't until I broke my toe that I knew that something seriously had to change. I had been arguing with my boyfriend constantly for about a week at that point and I had managed to get myself so angry about the whole situation that with full force I ran into my bed, and as it turns out broke my toe. Ouch!!
For a long time I had been feeling misunderstood, not listened to in my relationship which, as a result had created some pretty unpleasant emotions that I had not been listening to. Emotions are energy in motion, so when we are not processing the emotion and the energy behind the emotion our body will internalise this energy because the energy has to go somewhere. Many chronic illnesses have been linked to manifestations relating to emotional trauma or stress (this I will cover in another post!) I knew I had to make some changes and start seriously looking after my health, I had to come first. And so it was a really difficult and horrible decision to break up with my boyfriend. The emotional stress it had caused had far out weighed my happiness and I knew that I just couldn't put my body through so much stress anymore. Read More