What a year it has been!
For many of us this year has signified letting go of what we thought this year would look like, surrendering to the path before us, and deepening our practice of leaning into the unknown.
For me this year has definitely included a whirlwind of unexpected change that required me to lean in and be in the process of inner healing and transformation A LOT.
For me inner healing and transformation is messy, painful, joyful, confusing, clear, up, down and everything in between.
This year I have believed in myself more, taken more risks, tried new things, gotten myself out of my comfort zone and with all of this learned and grew, experienced success AND failures.
I have learned so much about myself through this whole process and spent much of this year just experiencing life in order to help me gain more clarity over what is important to me in life and what isn’t. My priorities changes, my ideas changed and even my beliefs changed.
I’ve been reminded of the importance of self care, self belief and courage even in the face of fear, challenges and uncertainty.
I had many external ‘achievements’ and goals that I had clear visions for coming into 2018.
I started my podcast, ran my first interstate workshop, supported over 40 women, ran over 25 group support sessions, started a new job, moved house, bought my dream car and up-leveled my life in all areas! For me 2018 was not only about taking massive action and having external achievements, but it was also about being in the process of life and continuing my healing and growth after narcissistic abuse.
One of the more challenging and painful lessons of 2018 for me was the concept that I need to have my back at all times and not rely on others to have my best interests at heart. Being my own best friend and making self honouring choices for me and me only was definitely challenging and still an ongoing practice.
Towards the later half of this year after my Melbourne trip I had some personal challenges that greatly impacted my health and I ended up with not only a nasty flu and infection but also burnout and my chronic fatigue flaring up. After such a big year this was definitely a challenging time, and continues to be something I am in the proccess of navigating. Finding the balance of self care and rest and still supporting clients, running my podcast and writing here for you is an ongoing journey and process for me. One of my affirmations and mantras for 2019 is:
‘I am no good to anyone else if I don’t look after myself first.’
2018 was yet again another reminder that ‘Rome wasn’t built in a day’. Life is a journey and a process and not a destination…
One of my biggest passions and inspirations for doing this work is to remind others of their power, to reclaim their voice and to be a role model for how we can use our pain and transform this into our purpose.
I truly believe that we must become the change we wish to see in the world and just like that our world has the possibility to transform and become a better place for all.
For me 2019 will be all about creating space, taking my self care practice to the next level, travel, exploring and following my heart, creating, mentoring and of course I have some exciting things coming to support you in 2019!
Sending you so much love and happiness for a wonderful and amazing 2019!
PS. Here are some powerful journalling prompts to help you reflect on 2018.