So I have a confession to make. I've been letting a pretty big fear of mine control my life.
Procrastination, fear, negative self talk and doubt have made it almost impossible for me to navigate my way through the fear, angst and inner battle that I have been at war with.
My limiting beliefs about who I am, how people perceive me and whether that makes me worthy of happiness, love, and money have dictated how I live my life, how much time I spend in my business and procrastinating about all the amazing things that I want to be doing. I've held limiting beliefs about being a coach and in particular 'being seen'. It can be daunting and scary as hell to put yourself out there, the possibility of people vocalising their negative opinions about my values and beliefs when it comes to my passions in my business has been scaring me shitless!
I've been hanging out in Fear Town. I've made excuses, created drama and distraction in my life and convinced myself that the life I am living is all I deserve. I don't even know how I ended up here. All I know is that somewhere down the line I allowed fear, panic and anxiety to control what I do and how I live my life. Financially I've struggled more than I have in my entire life, I've banged my head against the wall (metaphorically) trying to move forward and continue creating a life that I have spent years dreaming about. It's a less than perfect way to live your life, let me tell you. But somehow I managed to convince myself that this is all I deserved and could ever achieve with my life.
I've had many failed attempts, trials and half successes at many different hobbies and careers in my life. There have been failures in my life career wise that were out of control and because of this I have allowed it to be an excuse as to why I can't create and live the life of my dreams. Somewhere down the road I stopped manifesting and making my dreams a reality things became a real struggle because I had become the victim of my own reality.
I've had a roller coaster ride the last 3 years, and I have overcome many challenges and hurdles both in my internal and external world. I've navigated myself through dark and uncharted waters and have come out fighting on the other side. I can be my biggest critic, it's like I have been fighting a war inside my mind. I'm only human, I still forget to turn down the dial on my inner critic and let her run the show, but I'm learning and that's ok. We're not perfect and we will never be, then again why would we want to be? Honestly?!
I guess what I am sharing with you is that being open and vulnerable is ok, we don't need to fear it, judge it or run away from it. We ALL have fears, issues, an inner critic and limiting beliefs. We can choose to live from a place of fear, or we can choose to come from a place of love and be brave and bust through our fears, our limiting beliefs and turn down the dial on our inner critic. I have been on this huge inner journey and finally I feel like ALL of my desires and dreams are possible and that I am WORTHY. I am on a mission to remove the struggle from my life and to embrace POSSIBILITY.
I've done lots of reflecting, meditating and listening to my heart trying to work out how I am going to work through my fears and limiting beliefs. So I thought I would share with you some things I will be implementing/reinforcing into my daily routine.
I am going to hold myself accountable. When I say I'm going to write posts, create content for you and continue to be of service, I will be holding myself accountable and follow through with actions. I'm a big list person, so to help I will keep a list of goals, intentions and actions that I want to take to help me along the way.
2. Self Compassion & Trusting the Universe
There's nothing worse than banging your head against a brick wall trying to change things you can't control, it's like pushing shit up a hill, it's never going to work. And when life gets in the way I'm going to focus on being loving and kind to myself, no more berating or raging a war inside my mind for all the things that I 'should have done'. My spiritual practice is also very important to me and a huge part of this is placing trust in the universe. Everything happens in divine timing, and I am going to remind myself of this daily.
3. Positive Affirmations
I find great motivation and inspiration from positive affirmations. Think of them like your new best friend, they are always there guiding you and sharing positive pieces of inspiration. My favourite are Gabby Bernstein's Spirit Junkie affirmations and Danielle LaPorte's #Truthbombs.
Being in stillness is the best thing that we can do to stop our minds from going cray cray. We have so many thoughts running through our minds every single day no wonder our inner critic runs the show so easily! There are many different meditation apps that are a great tool to help guide you through meditations, one of my favourite is Deepak and Oprah's 21 Day Meditation Experience. They are currently running 'Shedding the Weight' meditation experience which is amazing! I will be sharing more on this soon.
5. Self Care
My self care practice is one that I hardly compromise on now. I have worked hard to create different practices in my daily routine to make sure that I look after myself. For me a good nights sleep, nourishing and healthy food, baths and movement are non negotiable. I have recently started walking more in nature and have been doing some interval running which has been so good for my body. I find that being a sensitive person my emotional body can store too many emotions that I haven't processed and running has helped me release some of that energy.
I'd love to hear from you.
What fears are you busting right now? Do you have any practices that help you process and work through your own personal fears?
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