The last few months have been a time of great change for me both emotionally and spiritually. I've experienced huge internal shifts and have experienced many highs and lows. As I've talked about in the past I've experience huge internal shifts and have been on this spiritual journey for the past 4 years. Everything that I've experience in this time has been preparing me for the next stage of my life, which I am transitioning into at the moment.
One of the biggest aspects of my internal shifts has come from my awareness around my fear of making choices. This has been a theme in my life for many years now, but it became more apparent recently when I was trying to figure out how to change certain reoccurring themes in my life. I realised I had my foot in the door in a lot of different things, and I wasn't fully committing to anything. I couldn't figure out why nothing was really working that well, yet I continued to juggle multiple things at once in the hope that it would somehow work out.
Once I made the connection, everything in my life became more clear and my external world changed dramatically. I completely removed my ex from my life who was toxic for my health and wellbeing, made a big commitment to my finances and started a new job, cleared out and sold my teaching stuff and found a passion for essential oils. I surrendered and released a lot of emotions and with that also my attachment to physical objects. I allowed myself to stay open to new possibilities and things and as a result the Universe also manifested a new phone and car for me!
Since making these decisions I have committed to surrendering myself to the Universe in ways that I have never done before. My faith in what the Universe has planned for me became stronger and I allowed myself to really accept where I am at on my journey right now. I created a lot of space, contemplated, reflected and allowed myself to really feel what I had been through. I experienced immense pain, grief and with that suffering but I know that if I had of avoided this I would not be on the other side of those feelings. Allowing yourself to move through emotions is 100% part of the process to emotional freedom, healing and evolution of your soul. As I've continued to create space in my life, I've been able to welcome many new experiences and opportunities into my life and have continued to accelerate on my spiritual journey.
Feeling really is healing.
This period of transition has taught me a lot about who I am now, what I've learned these last few months and how much I've fucking grown as a person. I honestly didn't know I could feel the way I do now, you don't quite believe it is possible for yourself when other people tell you it really is possible to feel happiness, joy and freedom again. I'll be sharing more about my recovery from narcissistic abuse in the future, but I just wanted to share that it's not a straight or linear process. The thing that kept me stuck in an emotionally abusive relationship now gives me the power to have a better future and live a life with more passion, purpose and 100% gratitude. We all have different experiences and different ways of dealing with it but for me it has been 100% about surrendering and allowing myself to say yes to the universe. And now I truly know there is a light at the end of the tunnel. By allowing myself to be open to the Universe and what it has to offer, I have been able to loosen my grip on control and resistance. It is totally possible, even for me!
Lean into the fear, feel it, acknowledge it and let yourself move through it. By trying to fight it, resist it and ignore why it is showing up in your life it is only going to perpetuate the cycle even more and keep you stuck in destructive patterns. On the other side of fear really is everything you've been dreaming of. The possibilities are endless and there is so much hope to create a life where you feel heard, loved and supported.
Are you holding back from making important life changing decisions in your life?
Are you ready to say yes to the universe?
Love Jasmin xx