Why is it that society often makes us feel that we can’t have the dream job or the dream life?
Why do we feel we need to succumb to its bland, dull and often soulless expectations? We live our life based on what society has conditioned us to believe we must do with our life. From a young age we’re told to get a good education so that we can get a good job to afford a mortgage so that one day we can have a stable and supportive home to raise children. We get told that once we acquire all of these things we will be complete and truly find happiness. Yet we get stuck in a job we hate to work endlessly and tirelessly for a mortgage we really can’t afford and to make matters worse we are repeating this cycle of conditioning with future generations.
Society, our upbringing and our own egos try and tell us that we must live a life that is safe, uneventful and within our comfort zone. This way we will never get hurt right??
I used to absolutely dread going out of my comfort zone to experience new things. Up until last year I was quite happy in my own little world. My comfort zone was there to protect me and keep me safe from all those ‘things’ that could go wrong. I became stuck in a place where work, uni and friends kept me somewhat in a place of comfort. At the same time however I had this numbed feeling whenever I had wonderful experiences. I thought I was happy and knew exactly the direction my life was taking. I was completing my final internship for my teaching degree and was working part time.
I was busy and I thought that meant I was happy.
My graduation from University came and went. That moment I received my degree was the day that I had been living for my whole life. I thought that once I had attained a tertiary education my life would be complete. I thought I would have all the answers I needed to guide me through the rest of my life. I would finally be able to get a good job, get a mortgage and plan the life that I had been so conditioned to want.
It wasn’t until it was time for me to get a teaching job that I realised I didn’t feel prepared at all. I mean how I could be a leader and teacher to a class of children when I had yet so much to learn and experience myself? I felt this overwhelming sensation come over me and then a state of panic followed. Before I knew it I was in anxious, scared and fearful of my future. If I didn’t feel prepared to be a teacher what was I going to do? I was financially and emotionally drained from my time as a uni student and really didn’t like the prospect of going back to study something new which didn’t necessarily guarantee me a job either. I mean what could I possibly study now?
The only thing that I knew then and there was to stop listening to my ego and go within.
What was it that was truly making me doubt my years of study and experience that I had gained to become a qualified teacher? Fear, job uncertainty and that ever damn ego of mine undermining everything that I now know not to be true. To this day I wonder how I got to this point. It feels like I have been catapulted into this exact moment. Thrust from the very depths of despair to this moment of clarity and peace I never knew existed within me. All I can say is that the universe has been guiding me. Everything I have been through has served a purpose regardless of the outcome.
Every thought, every decision and every action has created this life defining moment.
I came to the realisation that I wasn’t fearful or doubting my abilities as a teacher it was the fact that I didn’t feel classroom teaching was exactly what I should be doing with my life. When I took the time to really listen to my body and feel what I was feeling I realised the uncomfortable and negative feeling I was experiencing was because the job really wasn’t right for me.
When I look back at my life now and all the amazing opportunities I have had since I took the time to really listen to myself I realise what I truly wanted to do with my life I realised this is what I am here to do.
I am here to teach and guide others how to find their true purpose and not be afraid of following their passions. I am here to teach people to become in tune with their emotions and not be afraid to feel their feelings.
I believe the reason I was able to figure this out was because I listened to myself and I listened to how the prospect of becoming a classroom teacher made me feel.
This wasn’t an easy realisation for me either. I experienced terrible bouts of anxiety and depression towards the latter part of last year because initially I spent so much energy and time resisting what I knew I was feeling. With increasing resistance came increasing feelings of fear and doubt. I’ll admit it was a difficult experience to overcome, but as the weeks and months passed and I slowly started to take steps forward my symptoms disappeared and a feeling of clarity and positivity for the future began.
See we resist what we truly desire.
We start to fear not the failures that we may encounter when we follow our desires but the success, passion and abundant love we can feel when we truly follow our souls longing.
Since then it has been trial and error and it has taken months to figure out how I wanted to move forward with my life. The biggest lesson this experience has taught me is that in order to follow your passions you must listen and trust. Trust that the universe has a plan and trust it is always gently guiding you.
You just have to listen.
Do you feel tired and exhausted fighting off all the signs the universe has so desperately been trying to show you?? Trust that the universe has a plan, greater than you could ever imagine. Just let go whatever IT is. It’s not serving you now nor will it serve you in the future so why hold on? Trust the universe. And NEVER EVER think you don’t deserve to be completely and utterly happy with the life you having been dreaming to live.
What are you holding on to that may not be serving you? What are your passions and dreams for the future and what is it that is truly holding you back from making those dreams a reality?
Tell me in the comments section below I’d love to hear your thoughts.
Love Jasmin xx