After a tumultuous four year battle with myself I feel it’s finally time to share my story with the world.
See I was living in fear...
I was fearful of where I was at in my life, fearful of the people I had hurt and those who had hurt me and worst of all fearful of the person that I had become.
After a difficult four year on and off relationship I was battered and bruised and completely depleted. I had lost all self worth and happiness within myself and I was scared of the choices that I had made. I was angry with myself for continuing to stay in the relationship which had been not only mentally and emotionally draining but also destructive.
Since then I’ve experienced many highs and lows and found it difficult to truly find myself amongst the chaos that has been my life.
I have gone from starting a degree in Education to working full time in the hospitality industry to starting a degree in Commerce, to completing and graduating as a Primary School teacher all whilst living with chronic fatigue, stress, anxiety and depression... surely I’ve experienced the works? Needless to say I have learned and grown from my experiences in ways that I didn’t know were possible.
Our experiences regardless of whether they are good or bad do not exist as separate entities. Each and every experience we have shapes us to be the person we are today. I truly believe that nothing we experience is a mere coincidence.
Everything happens for a reason.
All my life I’ve had a passion for learning anything I could find and then teaching others. Ask anyone I know and they will tell you that I talk too much, dream big and want to experience my emotions fully. I guess the biggest battle has been that with myself. Over the years I have held many people accountable for my happiness not realising that ultimately I am the sole creator. I’ve held idealistic expectations of others which not even I could meet. This in itself has caused not only me pain and suffering but also those closest to me.
I used to set goals, create plans right down to the minutes and worst of all hate myself when things didn’t go as planned. I’d have everything planned out in my head without even realising. Sounds crazy right? Let me tell you now planning although as helpful and organised as it sounds will make you very miserable. One of the biggest life lessons I have learned is that life never goes the way you plan. It has taken me years to come to a place of understanding and acceptance that we can’t plan where we think we want to go or who we want to be.
We fall down, make mistakes, and then learn from them. If we don’t learn from them the universe will make us relive the same experiences until we do. When we let go we allow the universe to lead the way. See the universe is constantly guiding us.If we choose to notice the subtle hints it provides we allow ourselves to truly live the life we are destined to live.
When we are in tune with our emotions and let our intuition guide us we allow ourselves to be the best possible version of ourselves...our most authentic version.
Now finally I can see the light at the end of the tunnel.
I look forward to sharing with you my experiences and passions. I have wanted to create a blog for a couple of years now but didn’t really know where to start or what I should really blog about. I have had an interest in health and wellbeing for a few years now but after my own health problems I have delved deeper into the world of nutrition and wellness.
I also believe that there were experiences that I had to have in order to truly find my path in the blogging world. The last 12 months I have been catapulted into unknown territory. A rather personal experience recently has provided me with the strength and wisdom to truly follow my passions. I have finally allowed myself to really listen to what the universe has clearly been guiding me to do all along.
Before I go I want to share with you my ultimate passion and that is to learn as much as possible about life. I have always been a very emotional person but never really knew how to make my emotions work for me. I have spent years battling my emotions and working against them.
I believe every emotion that we feel is there to guide us and ultimately impacts the decisions we make.
My absolute dream is to teach and inspire you to take control of your emotions and make them a powerful tool that you can harness at any time. I hope that I inspire you to start living now and experience all the emotions that we as humans are destined to experience.
Having delved into some of the wisdom I have gained from my experiences I want to tell you that I don’t claim to have all the answers nor do I want to.
I believe it is our purpose to learn and grow from all the experiences that life throws at us. I believe there’s no such thing as a destination just a journey that we all deserve to experience.
Let me leave you with this inspiring thought...
We all have struggles in life it’s how we choose to harness our emotions and experiences that truly defines who we are.
Now tell me what experiences have been a turning point in your life to make you realise you were not living as your most authentic self?